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"I Believe in you!"
A message of Hope...stories from the
road.
By Bob Perks
My friends..."I love you all!"
Always and all ways,
Bob and Marianne
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"It didn't work."
I know the power of words. I can clearly remember
the day the doctor told me my son had cancer. I saw the look on my wife's
face when she nodded her head and said "yes" to me while speaking to her doctor
on the phone...cancer.
Just minutes ago, my son, Keith called me on my cell
phone. Over the last few days, every time I saw his name on caller ID I
took a deep breath.
"It didn't work," he said softly.
Words I will add to my collection of things I never want
to hear again.
"It didn't work. She had blood work this morning and
it didn't work. No baby"
I rushed to tell you about this. I am indebted to
those who gave money to help pay for the procedure. More than
$2,500 for the $9,000 debt.
I am indebted also to those of you who prayed, believing,
wanting this as much as we.
Nothing about this worked. They used acupuncture,
massage therapy, meditation, and ate so healthy. The procedure should have
yielded future possibilities which would cut the costs to try again.
Nothing. So, if they ever were able to try again, it would be
another $9,000.
But money has never been a factor in my life when it came
to possibilities.
I worry for them both. Particularly Keith. He
blames all of this on himself because of his cancer and chemo.
He knows better. But depression
doesn't.
During these recent weeks I took on the role of being the
cautious one.
"Well, Keith, if this doesn't work..."
"Don't forget you can always adopt..."
He was angry with me at times because I appeared negative,
unwanting, unconcerned.
It was killing me. I feared building him up and
getting excited about the possibility of being a grandpa.
"Poppy."
It came to me one day as I was driving. He called
my dad Pop Perks. I wanted to remember my father in
all of this so out of the blue I heard the word, "Poppy." Pop P.
It's what I would have been called if...
if it worked.
So, this conversation a little earlier ended with me
saying, "Keith, you know we prayed to God and asked for Him to bless this.
We put our trust in Him if it were meant to be...It wasn't. So, we can't
be mad at God because it didn't work."
"I know," he said.
"We are indebted to Him for so much more in our
lives," I added.
"I'm in debt alright," he said. "But we'll borrow
again and try. "It will work."
Silence.
"I love you!" I said.
"I love you, too."
I hung up. Pulled over and cried. Not
for me. For him.
Because..."It didn't work."
"I believe in you!"
Bob
I encourage you to share my stories but I do ask
that you keep my name and
contact information with my work.
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Appreciate what I do?
Here's how you can help me:
This link will take you to my web page for more
information,
shopping, and ways you can help.
I humbly thank you in advance...
Love always and all ways,
Bob and Marianne
Perks "I Wish You enough!"
© 2001 Bob Perks I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye." |
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