At last my heart beats with utter gladness, many smiles, and enormous cheer to be alive and breathing. My thoughts are finally filled with joy, peace and happiness. I also know now there are no troubles that are impossible that I cannot endure or overcome.

All this because, of the power of God, the Most Highest of All. I have absolute belief I have finally found my place in my life. I feel now, I have found what I have been seeking within myself for many, many years. I also feel there is nothing I cannot accomplish with the hands of

God and His mercifulness upon me. Blessed I am.

I have always believed in God the Most Gracious Most Merciful. I have always believed and known He was my savior. He is our creator of all living things. I realize now there is nothing impossible with Him in my life.

Unfortunately, I never felt right when finding my way to Him till recently. I have always been searching how to truly go to him but never finding that acceptance, never feeling secure enough to go to Him with a sincere heart and true belief, not be a hypocrite.

To God I Thank Him, whole heartily for the blessing he has bestowed upon me. He has blessed me with the highest hope I have ever had in my life. I wake up with joy now where there was once sorrow. I have no doubt where there once was fear. I really feel like I have energy to live now, when not so long ago, I did not.

I have recently met (on the internet) someone that has become a very important person and friend to me in the last two weeks or so. He (My Prince) has made such an impeccable impact on my life. More than I will ever be able to even understand myself. His impact on me; my words cannot speak; there are no words to express the appreciation for this person in my life. With this friend I am capable of completely being myself, the true me, the woman I am today.

When I spend time talking with him my mind and heart lets go of the person I once was and the mistakes I am not proud to say I have made. I am able to laugh and smile with honesty. I am capable of thinking nothing but good, happy thoughts. The mere thought of him brings a smile to my face. I have been utterly happy for two weeks and I plan to remain this happy the rest of my life.

There are still numerous changes that will come, some easy and many difficult. Decent, honest from the heart changes do not happen over night-for a person that their life choices have not always been Godly. Living ungodly was a life style that I have lived most my entire life. But I have already made decisions to change those ways - my choice to

a better path in my life and my choice is for myself, not any other person. This will be one of the most difficult challenges and accomplishments for myself.

Now, I need to learn how not to excuse my decisions away because, another may or may not approve of them.

All I can do from this day forward is PRAY that God will hold HIS hands with me and will continue to bestow my heart with the feelings I have now and bless those that will not understand. I pray for the strength and courage to do what I know in my heart and mind is best for me.

Thank You God The Most Gracious Most Merciful Creator of all, thank you for your Blessings of life. Amen

(C)EAD 3-31 2004
efaulk72 @ earthlink. net

About Me:

I have had a dream since I was 13 years old to be a writer . I let go that dream years ago. Due to a recent unseen blessing I have been able

to find that part of myself I thought I lost. I gave up but I believe now . Writing is important to me. I don't have a high school diploma but I am working on that and maybe just maybe I will be the inspiring writer I desire to be.