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You may feel that
nobody really understands how you feel and that
very well may be true, however I tell you on the
Authority of the Word of God that Jesus does
understand! When it comes right down to it, Jesus
is the only one who can really see into the depths
of our heart and know exactly what is going on
inside. He Loves you and He cares about your every
breath.
I am speaking
from experience! I have suffered physical, sexual
and emotional abuse in my life and I can tell you
that the emotional abuse is the worse. The scars
from the physical abuse eventually fade away so
that you don't really think about it that much,
but the emotional scars never go away!
We are to forgive
people. God said that if we don't forgive others,
He will not forgive us but He understands that it
will still hurt. I had to give all the bitterness,
hurt, confusion, suicidal thoughts which I had
every day for sixteen years, and the loneliness to
Jesus.
It did not happen
over night but when I really opened my heart to
Jesus and made a heart commitment, not just a head
and verbal commitment, all of my past started to
fade away. It took years to do that and He is
still in the process of working on me by
reassuring me, sometimes every minute of the day,
how much He Loves me and cares when it seems
nobody else does.
God used a beloved Pastor who has been a
dear friend of mine for many years to show me how
to open the door to my heart emotionally. Pastor
Byron said this statement in a sermon once and
when he said it I honestly thought the man was
crazy. He said, "If you want to fly higher than a
kite, start bragging on Jesus". I started doing
that. I began to tell everyone I came in contact
with how great Jesus is and how much He Loves you
and desires to heal your pain.
I remember once
several years ago at a bus stop while waiting for
the bus, there was a man sitting there waiting
with me. I was still extremely afraid of people
but I finally started talking to him. I said,
"Sir, do you know how much Jesus Loves you"?
He just looked at
me and didn't say anything. It scared me so I
didn't say anything else. Five minutes later, he
began to weep and said, "Do you really think it is
possible for Him to love me since I have done so
many terrible things in my life"? I told him that
if Jesus could love me as many crazy and mixed up
and sinful things that I had done, He can love
anybody.
The bus was late
and we talked for twenty minutes and I had the
privilege and honor of leading him to accept Jesus
into his heart. I have never seen or heard from
that man again but I know that Jesus has him in
the Palm of His Hand, and that is all that we can
do for anyone. Give that person to Jesus and then
get out of His way and stop telling Him how to fix
the situation.
Joanne
Lowe
January 22, 2005
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