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A
Moment in Time
It was Love at first sight that
became that special moment in time. I'm unsure what
it was that spoke to me the night we met, however I
know what built a Love that I feel certain I will
forever hold warm to my heart.
Other than his smile I wasn't
certain what was calling me to him, yet he came to be
the man I couldn't stop thinking about. Once we began
dancing I noticed that his stature exuded confidence
and strength, his eyes were warm and sensitive, and
his smile was captivating. I was soon having a
conversation with myself.
My subconscious mind was saying,
"You're going to fall in Love with this man."
"Fall in Love? Where did that
thought come from? Falling in Love is the last thing
on your agenda Teri."
Soon I discovered what my sub
conscience was talking about. His problem solving
techniques, his desire to understand, to communicate,
to share who he was and why, were all elements I was
fortunate enough to learn within days of knowing him.
He was able to share everything about himself with
me.
It was only a few weeks into this
whirlwind romance when I found out there was a woman
in his very recent past. He was still in Love with
her. With my new experience I found a new woman
within myself, a woman who wanted his happiness as a
priority. Again I found myself fortunate enough to
walk through this with him. I felt his pain as he
worked through issues that were very sorrowful for
him. My friendships with other men as well as my
feminine experiences gave me the tools to support him
in his quest to understand the woman he was in Love
with. Much to the dismay of friends I delighted in
helping him with his situation.
The greatest joy was the day I
had a telephone message from him, "Thank you, thank
you, thank you! I had a wonderful conversation with
her!"
With the happiness in his voice I
found solace in knowing I had done the right thing.
This was the Love he wanted. The only explanation I
can find for this is that I had done something to
bring joy into the life of a man I Loved very much.
Their relationship continued to
be rocky. When it was on, I was content; when it was
off, I wanted him back in my life. This was perhaps
the most confusing period of time for me, as I know it
was for him.
When their relationship ended he
retreated from me. For months I sent him notes,
thoughts of encouragement, with little or no response.
Throughout those following months there was little
communication from him. At one point in time I tried
blaming him for my pain. For the first time I could
no longer give, it was too agonizing. I finally
couldn't handle the sorrow and I closed the door on
our friendship.
Then there was a moment in time.
I was back in Dallas for the weekend meeting my
friends for an evening and there he was. My heart
pounded as I walked by him. I hadn't been that close
to him without a friendly hello and a hug, but I
couldn't do it this time, I walked by him as though I
hadn't seen him. My girlfriends and I sat watching,
wondering if he knew I was there.
A friend came and asked me to
dance. I insisted that we walk down the other side of
the bar to avoid him. Soon another man asked me to
dance, this time I knew I would walk past him. I laid
my hand on his back and said, "Hello, it is so good to
see you.
His smile was broad and his eyes
tender as he said, "Hello Teri, I'd like to talk to
you before you leave."
Although my attention was sitting
a few feet away from me, I did my best to stay focused
on the man I was dancing with. The dance couldn't be
over soon enough to give me the opportunity to once
again walk by the man who held my heart. As I
approached we exchanged a smile and a gentle squeeze
of hands.
I returned to the table to tell
the girls what had transpired. I had a difficult time
thinking of anything other than the conversation I was
about to have. I felt certain we would exchange
pleasantries as well as have the opportunity to learn
a little more about one another.
He approached me from behind
saying; "I'd like to have that conversation when you
are ready Teri."
"I thought you were sitting with
women and I don't want to interrupt."
His friends were gone and I
followed him back to his table. The feelings of the
night we met came flooding back through my very
essence.
"Teri, you look lovely tonight.
There is a sparkle in your eyes."
He could see right through me; I
couldn't hide my feelings with him so I might as well
tell him. "My eyes sparkle because I am here with
you." OK, I thought to myself, I'm a fool to let him
know how I feel, I am not playing the game and I'll
never win his heart! However from the beginning he
offered me the luxury of being myself and I had
confidence that no matter what, I would act and react
as Teri.
We exchanged mutual pleasantries,
sharing our lives and thoughts. I felt as though we
hadn't been apart for a moment in time, that this was
part of who we were. These moments were spent sharing
thoughts on life, his political views, and passions.
We spoke briefly of the discomfort we had shared and
then he said, "Teri, that is past, let's just enjoy
this moment."
I found tears burning my eyes as
the band began playing a song that touched me. I
turned my head trying to fight back the tears when he
noticed and asked, "What are the tears about Teri?"
I couldn't answer, I didn't want
to answer, he handed me some cocktail napkins and as I
wiped the tears he asked, "What are you feeling?"
Without realizing I said, "I'm
feeling Love for you."
"Teri, that is the most wonderful
thing you could say to me." He just looked at me with
the warmest eyes.
Time slipped away as we looked
into one another's eyes. "Would you like to dance, my
dear?" There was nothing more that I wanted at that
moment than to be held in his arms.
My eyes couldn't leave him as he
stood; I found comfort in his stature, his strength.
He held his hand out to me as he led me to the dance
floor. I felt as if we were the only two people in
the room. I lost all conception of where I was and
felt he was the only person there. His embrace was
comforting, Loving, I felt as though this was where I
belonged. I knew this was but a moment in time,
however I wanted it to last forever.
When we returned to our table I
could feel my emotions surfacing again, it was time
for me to leave. "I better leave and find the girls"
was all I could say. I sensed that he knew how I was
feeling and why I had to leave.
He rose from his chair and
smiled, "I'll walk you to your car"
As we left, a friend I hadn't
seen in some time distracted me. He walked back
looking for me and I quickly said good-bye to my
friend. I reached for his hand as we walked to the
car.
His embrace was warm,
comforting. As tears began to well in my eyes I
softly whispered in his ear "I Love you" and kissed
him on the cheek then stepped into the car.
This was simply a beautiful
moment in time.
Bio:
Teri Wilber, curator of the online publication,
heartswithsoul.com promoting humanity.
I live in Texas, single and dancing!! I have the 2
most wonderful sons, R. B and Michael ... they are
grown and independent, I am so proud of them! They are
the BEST! My parent??™s Joan & George Reid have taught
me to work hard and to always be the very best I could
be! Thanks Mom & Dad! = )
People of all ages are my real passion; learning from
and sharing with all I come in contact with. Many say
that true friends can be counted on one hand... I
believe that each person who touches our lives is a
friend if only for that moment. I tend to carry people
in my heart forever. For me Loving is the main
ingredient in life! |
