Storytime Tapestry Newsletter

The newsletter devoted to spreading love and cultural awareness throughout the world.

Special Treat – Kathy Myrah

September 7, 2007

I am delighted to introduce you to Kathy Myrah, our newest writer who becomes writer number 432 for Storytime Tapestry.   Please email her and welcome her to the fold.

Double-Edged Blade

by Kathleen Myrah

I would slide the double-edged blade into the back pocket of my Levi jeans. It gave me a sense of security, a sense of release. All I had to do was slip my hand back there, caress it in my palm, and tighten up my fist. Inhaling, exhaling, a rush going through my body. An escape from where I was. For many years, I did that. 

Eventually a blade found its way out of the pocket and onto my wrists. A hot summer evening, I was alone in my childhood home, staring at myself in the bathroom mirror. Screaming, I slammed my fist against the glass, shattering it to pieces. With a shard, I started to slit my wrists.

A familiar voice yelled out. In shame, I panicked. No one was to witness this weakness of mine. I heard the screen door to the house open and slam, with my dear friend, Angela, calling my name. She said she just stopped by to say hi. I couldn't hide my swollen eyes, or the remnants of a tear streaked face. I remember her asking me what was wrong. As always, I said nothing.

Over the years, I'd revealed nothing to anyone about my depression or of the times of being on the brink of suicide. My friend, Ang, never knew all that went on in that heart of mine. Most people never did. Only until later in my life did anyone ever know. My mother, dear to my heart, Tom my husband, and a long string of counselors and psychiatrists. I owe each of them my eternal gratitude.

But by the grace of God I go. 

Kathy Myrah

kk_mosier@yahoo.com