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Special Treat  –  Vona Kesterson Colyer

January 20, 2008

REMEMBRANCES OF A GERMAN MILITARY GUARD

 Vona Kesterson Colyer

As I look back on my role as a German military guard, I have problems forgiving myself.  I believe Germany and the cause of our people; however, I did not realize the extent of the attrocities being committed until it was too late.  Today maybe I sould have the nerve to sacrifice myself for human decency.

As a twenty-year old I was caught up with the rhetoric of the times.  "Duetschland, Duestchland, uber alles.  Uber alles in das welt."   (Germany, Germany over all.  Over all in the world)  was the battle cry of my people.  As a guard I was introduced to the lengths we would go in order to achieve this goal. 

Each day at the camp, I was asked to do more things which I knew deep in my heart were wrong.  Each day I also felt more afraid not to go along with everyone else.  I am thankful I was young and became involved near the end of the war.  I never killed anyone bu I also never had the nerve to risk my life or the lives of my family to stop the madness.

During this time of political struggles and a push for acceptance, it was not the time to question authorities.  I know right from wrong; however, I did not take a stand.  As I grow as a person, I truly hope my inability to express my concerns came from my age and immaturity.  This is not an excuse; however, in my old age I am seeking justification.

As I struggle today to forgive myself I work with Jewish organizations and victims.  I am a more accepted German because I am not a war criminal and many know I am fighting against racism.

I can never forgive myself for my role.  AllI can do is to daily continue the fight against senseless racism and back the Jewish people in their struggle as I continue to attempt to accept my past and forgive myself.

Thanks for everything Carol.  Let me know what you think and if you need anything.

Peace and light

 Vona Kesterson Colyer

vonaredheart@yahoo.com