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Special Treat ??“ From Me!

Oct 31, 2005? 

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My Heart Song

Carol Roach

Have you examined your heart lately, what secrets does it hold? Is it open for all to see, or partially hidden; revealing its true brilliance to a chosen few.?  I believe that as children we reveal our heart to the world.?  When we are young, we have yet to learn fear and scorn.?  When we are lucky enough to be born into a good family which nurtures our hearts and protects them for the precious commodities they are, we as individuals are open to the world. We are truly capable of experiencing all its wonder.? 

I believe you get back twofold all that you give out.?  You see the beauty in a smile, a flower, a butterfly, or a summer breeze.?  You are thankful for the little things in life and your joy overflows. In turn you sent out positive vibrations to all who meet you.?  Sometimes these vibes can transform even the most cynical of people.

Sometimes however the heart is not nurtured from birth. It is ignored, abandoned or even trampled over.?  The child then learns to mistrust the world.?  The child learns to hide his or her perfect thoughts and feelings, retreating from life and entering into a private world within. Often time this inner world is a tormented and lonely one. The child has not learned the joy of the universe existing outside of his or her person.? 

Imagine a world where you cannot express your true feelings. Imagine being unable to see the beauty in this world because you hurt so badly and the pain is just too great to bear.?  Imagine if you were incapable of letting your heart sing??  At this point, the good earth would not be a great place in your eyes at all.

When I was young my heart was not allowed to sing.?  I was prevented from expressing who I was; my identity robbed from me. I was always compared to someone else. I never measured up.?  I did not have a sense of self. I did not have the sense that I was a good person and a joy to behold.?  I did not know that I could make a difference in this world and that people would actually be happy to be around me.?  I did not know I was loved.

But there was a deep burning desire in me to express myself.?  To let my love come through because I knew I was capable of love, I just needed the opportunity to show it.?  As an adult I became the defender of the underdog.?  I knew their pain; I felt it.?  I devoted my life to easing the pain of others.? 

A wonderful thing happened.?  By advocating for others, I found my own pain was easing as well.?  The more I helped others, the more people were opened to helping me.?  For the first time in my life, the good vibrations I was sending out were in fact coming back to me.?  People started noticing.?  They started to see my good and perfect heart.? 

The tiny ripple of hope grew into a tidal wave. The more people started to believe in me, the more I began to believe in myself. My heart grew even bigger and I branched out.?  I went to university for a Masters in Counselling Psychology so that I could reach people on many levels, not just the downtrodden of this world.? 

Today I express my heart song through my writing.?  I express how I think, and how I feel. I share my fears and my courage, my joys and my sorrows. I write about my failures and my triumphs, and I express my desires and my dreams.?  I share my life and my heart with all who will hear.?  I do not edit or censure what I write for that would defeat the purpose.?  I share the true essence of me.? 

Because of who I am I have enriched the lives of many and they in turn have enriched my own.?  By sharing my heart??™s song I have made a difference in this world.?  By sharing your heart??™s song you make a difference too.

Carol Roach

winterose@videotron.ca

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A Native of Montreal, Quebec, Carol is a graduate of Concordia, and McGill University.?  She holds a bachelor in psychology and a Masters in counselling psychology.?  Carol Roach is a published writer and newsletter editor.?  You can purchase her book: Picking up the Pieces: A Woman's Journey at www.publishamerica.com, or www.amazon.com.?  You can also go to your local bookstore and order it there as well.?  Carol??™s second book: Angels Watching Over is currently looking for a home. Stay tuned for details. ? 

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